juxtapositions (a poem)

juxtapositions

i want to be found,
though i am always lost;
i wish for a blush of love,
yet i cannot bear the cost.

i ache for more time,
though i demand it gone;
i hide in fear of the night,
yet i never see the dawn.

i wait for tomorrow,
though the present goes on by;
i feel so numb to it all,
yet i always say i’m fine.

i dream in sweet color,
though i see black and white;
i hate it when i am wrong,
yet i will never be right.

i wonder if i’ll see you again,
but i think i’ve lost my mind…